Saturday, March 5, 2011
I'm sure I've mentioned before that I belong to a small group. I think this would be the equivalent to what people think a bible study is; only we don't study the bible. Its a group of people that get together that want to further their relationship with God and together we support each other in that relationship. I have been with the same group for a few years now; some of the people have changed; some are still the same people. I am one of the few in the group that did not grow up in a religious home of any sort. Some have grown up in Christian homes, some in legalistic religious homes, some in Catholic homes, but all have had some form of "God-knowing" in their home. I have not. Some things that they just have always done are a struggle for me; it just hasn't been part of my lifestyle growing up so it's not a natural thing. So sometimes in our small group we will discuss things and there are very different perspectives on things because of each of our own backgrounds and childhoods. I would have to say that I would be the one in the group that has the least amount of Christian friends. So a few weeks ago the topic of premarital sex came up. I explained that this is really a struggle to work through in my life. I now do not want to have sex again before I'm married. I've shared this with some of my friends and they tell me that they think that it isn't really a big deal to have sex before marriage. Even though I tell them that i don't want to because of my belief that it is a sin they say oh well it isn't that big deal and how are you going to ever find someone with this same belief. I then told my small group this and they were all shocked that people who were my friends wouldn't support me with this. But it's a different world that they dont' know at all. So I get where my non-Christian friends are coming from, I used to think the same. Enough about my non-existent sex life; on to what is the miracle of today. That I realized that my small group doesn't need me, but I need them. They don't need me because they all have a relationship with God already; but I do need them because I do have so many friends that could sway me to change my beliefs and backslide like I've done so before. I need my small group to keep me on track and be my place to get filled up with God when I feel like I may be settling for the world's ways again. So the other piece to this is though that I do need my non-Christian friends in my too. The weekend I became a Christian a piece of scripture stood out to me and never has left. "Leave everything and I will make fishers of men of you". It's in Luke, I'm not going to look it up right now and I know I should have the numbers memorized but I don't, I'm working on it. Anyways, Jesus didn't hang around other Christians and priests, he hung around sinners. This is who I hang out with, sinners, my small group doesn't need me, they are all already saved, but my friends aren't and I can't save them but I can sure be there when they have questions and share the message with them. SO thanks God for bringing this to my attention tonight; it was literally a light bulb moment. Thanks for my small group and all of my friends; whetherI need them or they need me I'm so happy that you've put me right where I am right now.