Day 203

When I was going through the process to adopt one of the skeptics was my brother Cory.  He had said to me one time that a kid was a lifelong commitment and that I wasn't going to send the kid back after a while.  I knew all of these things but I think that was my brother giving me parenting advice since he's a parent to 3 now.  We were all at my parents for supper tonight and now more than a year after Jacob has joined our family I watch the relationship between Jacob and Cory.  Cory tends to tease Jacob, tickling and poking and lifting him upside down.  I'm so thankful that Cory is who he is and was concerned but that he has such a good heart and loves this little boy as his nephew.  Thanks God!

Day 202

When I prayed for a mate one of the things that I prayed for was to be with someone who made me feel secure in the relationship, not insecure.  You know that icky feeling when you just spend all night wondering if you did something when in all actuality you did nothing and they just feel like being alone.  Well I always tended to worry and cause myself a lot of unnecessary anxiety.  Tonight D didn't come over and it was all okay.  I had no icky panicky feeling.  I had just contentment because I knew that we are okay and that we are getting to know each other so there will be times that we aren't always together and its all okay.  Thanks God for the peace of mind and answering my prayers yet again.

Day 201

There is a file at work that has made it's rounds.  Its just a difficult file and it keeps going to court and nothing ever seems to get resolved.  Today a prayer was answered and we have a court date to put the situation to rest once and for all.  Now to pray that it goes as we hope it will!

Day 200

I used to belong to a $240 club.  What it was is that 12 women get together and each throw $20 in the pot and each month a new woman wins the pot.  Really your up no money and your out no money because everyone wins once.  I started another one of these clubs but this time it is called "gift to yourself" club.  Tonight I was the host and so everyone came over and we all just sit around and socialize and its really a time to just get out and enjoy some adult lady time.  When I sent out invitations I really didn't know who would respond.  It's turned out to be a great mix of ladies and toight it was so much fun that some didn't go home until midnight!  Thank you God for these ladies and the time together.

Day 199

Jacob says prayers right before bed.  I've started asking him who he wanted to pray for and he will say certain people's names; Colton is usually at the top of the list and then he throws out other names.  Sometimes Pastor Norm, grandma, poppa, Aunty Jen.  I have no idea his rhyme or reason of who he says just that those are the people that we pray for that time then.  Tonight right away he asked "pray for Daniel?"  I said sure, so tonight Jacob prayed for Daniel.  Bless my son's little heart and his openness to pray for others.  Thanks God.

Day 198

Yesterday my stomach started the "gurgle, gurgle" action.  I wasn't sure if I was for sure getting sick or if it was just a touch of something.  By supper time I knew that I was sick.  I went to bed hoping it would pass.  At 4am I was wide awake and the gurgling was now painful and I knew I would not be going anywhere today.  Jacob woke up at his normal time of 7am but he just wanted to snuggle on the couch with mom.  I thought that maybe he was sick too.  We sat and watched Cars and then he seemed to be quite perky and happy.  He appeared not to be sick at all.  I on the other hand was still running to the bathroom and in pain.  So what is my miracle of the day as I was in the fetal position on the couch all day?  That Jacob was healthy and that he didn't get sick at all.  Can you believe that I haven't had one episode of puking or diarrhea yet?!  So thanks God for Jacob's health and his ability to play by himself and understand that his mom wasn't feeling too good today.

Day 197

I know your probably going to get a little bored of hearing about D but bear with me for a little while.
Tonight I got a glimmer of life as I know it.  You know how you think about what your life will be like one day, one day when your married, and you have kids, and your living life, you get to that point where you always dreamed about? 
Tonight I had a glimmer.  We had supper and Jacob had a bath and then afterwards we all snuggled up on the couch and watched tv and ate our dessert.  Jacob snuggled up in between us.  Yep, life as I know it.  Thanks God for my life and the glimmer of life as I know it.